my biggest regret.

-was letting somebody i loved go. it's to hear this because got really complicated and out of hand when i broke up with this person. they were my world, my happiness... i knew i wanted to spend the rest of my life with them. they had ambition and they didn't stop at anything that could hinder them from reaching their goals. i loved this person, i really did. i probably still do. it was my mistake because i was emotionally unstable and i couldn't function well if i knew i had nobody- not even a friend. i was 19 then. during that time, i left no space for friends and i solely focused on that person. when they got busier because of extracurriculars and friends, i was kind of set aside. it was my fault for being too needy, i guess. if it weren't for that, we might still be together. i do still think of them. i think he hates me now, too. or maybe not. i don't really know. i sent him short, angry messages in the last month of 2019 because i couldn't keep holding my hurt feelings in. we don't have communication anymore. if i could go back in time and change things, i'd do it in a heartbeat.